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Sunday, April 30, 2006

my life is seriously in a big mess rite now....so many things going thru my mind at the same time....mainly is r/s....how cum the pri sch eric have suddenly changed a eric tat i cant recognise now in poly....a completely changed eric....how can i changed back to my old self????

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10:02 PM

HAVE I LOST THE DIGNITY OF BEING A GUY????

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1:08 AM

Thursday, April 27, 2006

didnt manage to blog yest cos was too tired to do so....not in the right mind to blog yest sia....well....sch was pretty ok....but am struggling in lect badly....firstly the lect is noisy most of the time....secondly the teacher keep stoping to keep the lect quiet....thirdly the teacher is going to slowly wif the topics....hopefully can catch up in lab or tutorial lesson....if not my 2.1 will be hell....den i simply love ICA....maybe becos it's java??? cos i love doing java....esp when u manage to get sth like applet to work....u will feel tat kind of satisfaction....but mainly muz thanks those who have help mi in java for 1.2 and 2.1....like wee siang,dexter,guoliang etc....

den the day ended in a bad way by F602....their attitude simply piss mi off esp for some gals....shall not tok abt it....cos i totally disappointed in tat klass already....F601 is still the best....

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6:20 PM

Tuesday, April 25, 2006

today lesson quite ok....juz maybe struggle abit during networking infrastructure lab and ica....ica is basically the continue of last sem java....but heard tis time round it's going to be harder....hope can get hold of the technique rite bah....haha....today mood was as normal....didnt have any moment when i seen ponder or think abt ps matter....tat's a great thing cos i'm able to na de qi fang de xia....

suddenly dun feel like going for ihub main com interview tml....cos after all is i asked mr lee y i nv got the nominated den he asked mi go....now i looks so thick skin to go for the interview tml....anyway i doubt i will get in lor....i'm not made a leader in poly....

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7:02 PM

Monday, April 24, 2006

do she have a bf??? tat's the big big question tat's is going thru my mind over and over again....tat time asked her got bf anot....she said have den after tat deny said she dun have....den today her sms she told me she have bf again....so which shld i choose to believe....the answer from her is so contridicting....can someone tat's is close from her really tell me does she have a bf anot....if she dun have i really go boldly to woo her liao....if not i will juz remain action-less....

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5:33 PM

now in lab lesson....mobcomp....didnt teach anything much today....cos it's the first day of lesson....but we learn abit abt WAP application and the program to it....

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9:33 AM

Sunday, April 23, 2006

tml will be the beginning of yr 2 le....wonder the sub we learning how difficult will it be sia....hope can really understand all the things teach....if not i will die for sure man....thinking of today is the last day of hols is feeling great....cos have to wake up early everyday for lesson from tml onwards....but in another way....can get to see some of my ifc freshie in some area of sch....

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5:27 PM

Saturday, April 22, 2006

haiz....foc juz passed....but i already missing all the fun already....if foc can be longer it will be so great man....but i noe gd things have to come to an end....so shall not juz leave the fun in foc in memory and look forward to start of sch semester....got jap for cds....same tutorial klass wif angela and stanley....thinking of changing it....but since now got 2 person same cds as mi....i shall reconsider....shall think whether to change anot after the 1st tutorial....

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11:11 PM

FOC is great....not a great start but a great finale by all freshie and mentors....will nv forget FOC 06/07....

1st day(19/04/06):
didnt slp for the whole nite in sch....den brought our belonging down to report to LT27 at 6am....had some briefing 1st before we're asked to go to our diff duty....den mi & chevy went to do registration....and we heard we actually broke the record of completing the registration within 1hr....haha....great job done by the mentors....den we went to the klasses we're assigned to....den the rest of the day is normal like hype up the freshie and do some admin stuff....but the day is pretty bad for most of us esp mi and chevy....shall not mention too much abt it....but if anyone wanna noe can ask mi....den have debrief at the end of the day and alot of complains were brought up by the mentors which sums up how bad the day is....after tat all of us juz head to our rm to rest and most of us r so tired until we all slp soundly....

2nd day(20/04/06):
didnt have a gd slp as the rm is pretty cold....has to wake up at 6.30am and report to LT27 again by 7am....but the day is better than day 1....as usual had briefing before everything started....den was able to get back to IFC klasses to mentor them....join up wif them at LT 21 where they had their CM and library talk there....over there i'm able to start hype them up abit....after tat went back to klass we continue to hype them up....but maybe becos we overdid tat....at the campfire without FIRE....they look so dead and restless....but was glad tat they all enjoy themselves at the LT where they continue to practice for their hand sign for the TP sch song....cos my fellow mentor actually sabo mi to do some disgusting action....which i oso abit paiseh....but can see they do enjoy themselves at tat time....den went hm to rest instead of camping in sch....but overall....today is much more better den day 1....

last day(21/04/06):
the war day at stadium and ragatta....was almost late for reporting as i woke up late but thx for one of my gd fren hu actually call mi to wake mi up....if not i will be late for sure....reporting time is 8.30am....briefing as usual....but today our mission is heavier....cos we were told tat day 2 the freshie is not so hype up or cheering wif us at the campfire without FIRE....so we had to hype them up and make sure they noe all the cheers by 12pm....so once we all mentors got back to our klasses....we quickly settle the payment for their books and we get on wif practice the cheer....den at ard 10am....all IFC klasses were join up together to practice cheering together....which at the moment was pretty touch and impress by the support they given to us....well done IFC! den my mentors continue to sabo mi lor....but nvm lar....as long as everybody enjoy the fun can liao....den at ard 2 lidat we all headed to stadium....over there....is time for war wif other sch....was quite proud of the whole engine ppl wif the cheers even though we have 2 loud speaker at our stand as disadvantage....den at ragatta oso the same....den when prize presentation....were pretty disappointed we didnt got any of the prize....but was glad tat we all give in our best....3 cheer for ENGINE! den when we got back to IFC klasses....they all have their books distribute out and all klasses gathered along the corridoor....at the moment was realli realli touch by the freshie....cos they r still so hype up even though we lost....after tat....all the mentors actually took initiative to send off the freshie at the concourse level....we keep cheering even though all of us r tired and lost our voice....i muz say i realli love and glad to be in engine sch....spirit is still veri high when all mentors r gathered at the LT for debrief....we continue to cheer until the main com and FAs r there....

after all i muz say....engine did a great job over the 3 days esp mentors....from a day of complain to a day of high morale and spirit....3 cheer and 3 cheer and 3 cheer for ENGINE....hip hip hooray! hip hip hooray! hip hip hooray! =)

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6:17 PM

Friday, April 21, 2006

back from FOC and everything juz ended so fast in 3 days....shall update the details of the orientation tml....

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11:53 PM

Wednesday, April 19, 2006

haiz....so sad now sia....seeing all my fren found their love one but i didnt get to find my love one yet....dexter and sandra, den chevy and cheryl, mark and carol....so envy them to see them honeymood with their ai ren....duo mo xi wang wo ye ke yi he wo xi huan de ren zai yi qi....but the fear of asking her to stead realli makes mi dun dare to ask anymore....cos of too much rejection....will i finally found the one i love??? waiting....WAITING....waiting....WAITING!!!

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2:38 AM

now currently in sch....had abit of fun lor....hope tml all mentor can hype up the freshie and win sth for engine....actually i pretty look forward to foc liao....didnt imagine it can actually get so fun juz on the eve itself....mi and stanley enjoying the most of it

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12:52 AM

Tuesday, April 18, 2006

another raining day....been raining almost everyday....but lets hope the next 3 day during foc wont rain so tat everybody including mentors and freshie can enjoy the fun side of TP....later gonna go get sth from fren den cum back get my bag and head for foc liao....hope it's gonna be fun....and nobody piss mi off with their words or wad....

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2:32 PM

had a gd tok wif CMT juz now....now felt better le....now not as frastrated as juz now at the FOC briefing....realise she's someone who i can realli tok to when in trouble....glad to have noe such a hao jie mei....juz hope tat everything will run smoothly at FOC and all of us enjoy tat moment of cheering wif everybody from engine....ENGINE ROX!!!

but another thing troubling mi is whether is she lying to mi she dun have bf....do i needa put tat extra mile of trust in her??? shld i start acting before it's too late??? so much things is pulling mi back from wooing her but yet i noe i'm still making things obvious....the onli barrier now is the fear of facing rejection....i'm scared of rejection already....maybe i shld juz get to noe her more before i prompt the question....

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1:32 AM

Monday, April 17, 2006

Dang Wo Zui Xu Yao You Ren Neng An Wei Wo De Shi Hou

Wo Zui Xiang Yao De Ren Jiu Shi Ni

Ke Shi Zhe Yi Qie Dou Zhi Shi Wo Xin Li Xiang De

Yin Wei Zhe Yi Qie Shi Bu Ke Neng Hui Fa Sheng Zai Wo Shen Shang De

Bu Guo Wo Zhi Xiang Gao Shu Ni

Sa Rang Hae Yo >> Wo Ai Ni!!!

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7:48 PM

i'm so stress and fed up now....how i wish i dunoe anything abt the FOC allocation or know michell....y am i always the one to face all this....YYYYYYY!!!!!!!

YAY....I TOO WAS UNHAPPY ABT THE ARRANGEMENT....UNHAPPY Y THE BRIEFING WAS SO BORING....UNHAPPY Y ALL OF US CANT BE TOGETHER IN CHARGE OF THE KLASSES....BUT DO I HAVE A CHOICE OR WILL TO GET ALL OF US TOGETHER....NO I DUN!!!

i bet it's my mistake to ask get all of us including myself to join the orientation in the first place....in the end all i get in return was not to see everyone looking forward or going to enjoy the orientation....but all sort of complain....if my sacrifice can make all of u happy....den i rather withdraw from the FOC & let either dexter or wee siang take over me....i'm so tired....can i have a break....

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7:36 PM